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Looking For The Good:

Posted by on December 31, 2013

How do you look at the hurt in your past, and realize the hope for your future?

This is rather deep {and long} for a blog post, let alone my first one…Dusten and I are house hunting as I’m sure most of you know. We have been seriously looking for almost 6 months with no avail. It’s getting frustrating. We actually put an offer in on a house and the owner said no. The hardest part for me, being an interior designer, is walking in and immediately “designing” the house to my taste and then not getting that house. We have a “beginners” budget and expensive taste! But, I am choosing to walk by faith and not by sight.

At church this morning the pastor read Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” I was freshly reminded that God knows my steps and I don’t walk this alone!

In the midst of house hunting, the Mooresville area has consistently shown up on our searches as somewhere we can afford that’s not too far from the office.  {yes we are centering this search around the office because that’s the only constant in our lives right now – that my friends is another story on another day}

Mooresville. {Awful. Hated. Adorable. Quaint. Quirky.} Mooresville. How I love your old houses. How I love your adorable town. How I hate the memories you hold. I hate everything to do with downtown Mooresville. I want nothing to do with it, yet it seems to be where we can afford to live.

Afford. But not want. You see…there’s this thing. This dark hole surrounding Mooresville. A blip in my past.

Blip? Is it really a blip? Does God design “blips”? My favorite quote currently is by C. S. Lewis.

“Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny”

You see, that hardship, that {hopefully} once in a lifetime experience, now is a part of me. It’s memories are a part of my life.

And sometimes, life throws you a curve ball. Instead of being able to look at the happy memories, you see the bad. You see the pain. You see the hurt. Today I saw the hurt and pain of a closed church. The hurt of a pastor who was not honest. The pain in a church community, that’s supposed to be safe, torn asunder.

Will that hurt. Pain. Be used for good? Yes! God promises that He will use it for good! He promises that He was there, walked it with us, knows our pain, and still desires to comfort us.

Today. I will choose to never forget those 18 months. I will always remember showing up early and putting out name tags for the kids. I will always remember working for the church. I will remember the college group meetings. Those are the happy memories. Those are the memories worth remembering.

Today I am thankful for parents who support Dusten and me on this road called life. Today I am thankful for a husband that cares for me far more than I deserve! Today I am thankful for God’s light to lead us on this ever winding path of life. Today, I think, is a turning point.

As I look ahead, I don’t know yet if I will ever be able to actually live in Downtown Mooresville, or if I ever want to walk down that path every day. But I know this: that God my Father will never leave me nor forsake me.